When i want to give you a name, i could pour my heart in Kuku !! Sweety, Sweetheart all those words seem incomplete !!
Today is your 5th birthday, and when i told: you are 5 years old now !! You objected and said :: I am not old, i am new 🙂 Completely agree !! That’s why your freshness is blossoming our lives !!
You have been suffering from cough and cold, and i wasn’t in a mood to send You school, but Your excitement, distributing cake in classroom, made me getting You ready and i dropped You to school hardheartedly !! I am still worried !!
While i was driving back to home, whole documentary was played in my mind, how those 5 years were for me, it was above every thing i have done in my life till now, but most of all i started crying, when i thought of Your purest of pure love. You don’t know meaning of complaining, cakes and chocolates apart !!
While people started undervaluing me, you made me realize my importance, hugged me and gave me your warmth. Every moment i feel, as i am the only one ” well deserved to be lived”, when you start searching me, if i am disappeared even for a while. You need my belly as cushion, while we go to bed and your skin to skin contact keeps away my all worries, it gives reflex to my heart to beat !!
I found my self as best cook, when you ate all, what i kept in your lunch box, and complimented me, mamma ! You cook best food !
I cherish, when you get glued with me, every where i go, even in washroom, and if i ask you, not to follow me, else you will be tired, you reply “I am your daughter, so where ever you will go, i will come with you” .. If i raise my pitch, you ask “Then whose daughter am i, are you not my mamma?” And if i scold you “No daughter for you” !! I need nothing to listen, your voice pours melody, enough for my life !
I have “you”, to show every one in this world, you are my master piece and i am proud of, you came from me!! I made you !! I was so blessed, that your pious soul, had chosen my bomb, to prove it’s existence, and you had faith in my all ways, i could handle you with care!! But for you, i have nothing, apart from my words !! May be they aren’t valued, but you are taking each as command !!
You know your mom is very poor, when it comes to express !! May be sometimes, you will find my words wrong, my gestures hard and attitude rude, but never take it wrong. All i want your happiness, at any cost !!
Yes, i promised to protect you, since first day, i got my pregnancy test positive. I failed, when i didn’t took out that lady’s tongue, out of her mouth, You were of 1 month and she was suggesting me to apply Garnier skin lightening cream, for your complexion. Hell with that Bast**** !! I said nothing, and still i repent, and i will keep on repenting !!
Then and now, i would not not let any one, coming in between you and your dignity !! I want to be grown as happiest girl, leaving all societal remarks of complexion, height, weight, attitude, clothing, girl/boy, etc. etc. far behind.
People say, you can’t change people, society. I am not leaving you to make it alone. It takes two to make a row, So i am always there, whenever, wherever you need me !!
You may find me wrong, when you fall down and cry, and i never come to console you. But Believe me, see you crying is, worst in my life to see you as !! Take yourself as warrior !! I want to see you that sensible, you need no one !!
Mamma !! ❤ ❤