It’s so true “experiences are the comb which life gives you when you are belt”. I was not writing today for the shake of blog post. It was the pain coming in my heart and i just wanted to confess publically.
Many might be there like you but sometimes you found yourself at the worst. Until i was a mom, could never sum up the things in the manner i should have been, but even after standing at the verge of hectic life, guilt just comes out, don’t know where is it melting from.
Everyday twice or thrice i remember the incidence. One day i was travelling and my train was late as per schedule, i reached home late in the night and immediately morning i joined my office back. It was a hectic day at work also. I was challenged with some of my work report presentation. Wanted to take oath. But when reached to one of my relative’s home i started to listen the comments. And those comments were slapping me like anything. Oh!! how dull you are looking. Some commented nowadays you are going very busy don’t have time to come to my house, some were so annoyed over something , they did not talk to me. It was like the hell i went in. I went in wash room and started to cry, washed my face and then came out. While driving back to my home i was thinking, if i would have reached to my mother this way, she would have run towards me with a glass of water, she would have shared my problems or either way would have tried to refresh me.
I remember neither i had given glass of water to my mom even when she used to come back from her office nor she expected a cup of tea. No matter how much she was panic, she always kept her arms opened for every single need of mine. I realize the values now and trying to be a mother like her only.
Things are even same but time is changed. I repent badly.
I would like to say these lines as my last words of life as a mother “I don’t know i would be able to die peacefully or not, because i am so much in you, but see the awkwardness, i want to die after seeing you at peak of success. I will tell you onece you will start to understand “you never get panic with my death, because i believe i would be the most proud mom that day and for ever“.